Monday, December 3, 2007

Almost 22 weeks

21 weeks & 5 days

Baby is about 11 inches long and just reached 1 lb! He is about the size of an envelope, but quite a bit thicker! He just started a growth spurt the past week. They say over the next 2 months or so I'll be gaining a pound a week to help him out. Yikes!

Hormones have gotten to me and made me kinda emotional. It's way too easy to cry for silly reasons. John is having to learn some coping skills.

Last Sunday we ordered a pizza and they totally messed up the order and I ended up crying for an hour because they put the wrong toppings on my whole wheat pizza. John didn't know what to do except wait for them to deliver the right pizza. Unfortunately by then since I had already taken my insulin I had to find something else to eat, so correcting the problem at that point didn't "solve" me being upset. Then I had the RIGHT pizza in front of me that I could no longer eat because I had already had to allocate my diet to something else. Couldn't win!

John also says I'm kinda "squishy". We went to Build-a-Bear at the mall to get baby a bear this past weekend. At one point they have you pick out a heart and you kiss it and make a wish then they sew it into your bear. When the sales clerk was explaining this process I just went "squish" and started bawling in the middle fo the store. It was so sweet! John just hugged me and laughed and smiled at his silly squishy pregnant wife.

Body chemistry changes have made my blood sugar swing all over the place for the last week. Within a few hours I can swing from an extreme high that makes me want to fall asleep for days to an extreme low that gives me a headache and causes me to shake and feel faint. I'm struggling trying to find the correct insulin levels to control it tightly again and pricking my fingers every 2 hours trying to see the reactions more clearly. I'm starting to understand the new reactions so hopefully I'll get that soon and have a week or two steady before it changes again. I am definitely up to the 2 different types of insulin and each of them atleast 3 times a day. Sometimes its more to do some correcting of dosages.

I did see my endocrinologist on Friday (diabetes specialist). She said I was actually doing amazing and to stop being so hard on myself. My A1C was within "normal" person range still, it had actually gone down further. And my triglycerides were maintained at the same level as 6 weeks ago. Blood pressure was still low. Whoo-hoo! So all in all, health-wise baby and I are doing good.

I've gained a total of 11 pounds so far. Sure seems like more if you look at my belly. It certainly looks like a definate baby belly these days. I'm pretty much in maternity clothes 100% of the time now. Thankfully my mom bought me a few basics that I wear a lot. I'm still lighter than I was 6 months ago because I lost weight before getting pregnant, but it doesn't really feel like it because my stomach seems so swollen and full.

It's weird, I constantly feel full and bloated but I am always ready to eat. I never know what I want to eat though. No super cravings recently. I just kinda graze on whatever is around. (Well, whatever I am ALLOWED to eat.) No real "I gotta have it". More like the "Must have SOMETHING now."

I've gotten into the habit of going around to some consignment stores after I drop John off at work on the weekends. I browse second-hand stores hoping to find a "great buy". That's where I've gotten my library of baby books and a few little outfits that were too cute to pass up, but other than that not a whole lot. There are some good deals out there sometimes.

OH! And MAN did I wish I had $$ this week. Tucson's USA Baby store was going out of business. Everything was 70% off. And I mean high end, brand name stuff going for next to nothing. I bought some little things like bottles and toys and stuff but I was aching to buy the kick butt rocker and strollers at cost. Unfortunatley I didn't have that much extra cash. Even at 70% off the high end stuff is just as much of an investment and the generic strollers.

In shopping I have discovered a new pet peeve of the week: Everything for baby is designed for you to have a large vehicle. It's like a requirement to have an SUV these days. Ridiculous American excessiveness. Anyways I realized that alot of strollers and car seats and such just won't fit in my little Chevy Cavalier. We'll have to do some more shopping around to figure out that one.

This week John parted with a lot of his biggest computer stuff. Most of which was so old nothing could be done with it anyway. A few pieces were really nice, but it would be years before we could even think about having the resources to put them together and get them functioning. I know he's a little disappointed in loosing an enterprise class server, but we'd need a minimum of $5000 just to get it functioning to be worth turning on...and that ain't happening any time soon. He's a little in mourning to part with it, but I think he's also a little relieved that now he can start fresh and have room for baby.

And there IS room for baby now! We got a whole wall cleared for the crib!!! I have boxes of "to sell" and "to donate". Now we just need to get them out of the house and I'll feel a bit better.

The last couple days its been raining and cooling off around here. Of course, it is still Tucson. Cold is in the 50's, but it has been hitting the 30's at night. I bundle up in the mornings when I am headed to work. They say pregnant women are supposed to overheat but I seem to be having the opposite problem. I am FREEZING! My toes and fingers don't seem to have any heat for the first few hours of the day. Every once in a while I go to the bathroom just to run my hands under some warm water just to get some feeling back into them.

I'm starting to have some trouble doing things at work. I've given up taking files for storage. And bending over to file things in the bottom drawer is getting to be a real chore that I avoid at all costs. This past week I had to shift a whole bunch of files into different drawers and I was pretty much dead by the afternoon. I will have to speak up and say something pretty soon because if I ever have to do that again it will be almost impossible. I'm spending most of my time staying busy on the computer instead. It's just hard for me to admit that I have limits! I still think I should be able to do anything. Isn't anybody gonna tell that to the baby!!!

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Week 20 - It's a BOY!!!!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Hope you had a great day with lots of family, lots of food, and lots of fun!

We woke up early this morning to do the Turkey Trot down at Reid Park. Since about 2 years ago when I started working on my health we've done their cross-country 5k to benefit Toys 4 Tots. This year I decided to walk the 1.5 mile 'fun run'. It's a nice little tradition that gets our metabolism in gear for the rest of the day. It was nice to still be able to participate even though I am 5 months pregnant! And I'm so thankful that John just kept my leisurely pace with me to keep me company and encourage me to keep going. It's neat to be able to say that was baby's first race!

We are now into Week 20! That is half-way to BABY TIME!!!!

Baby size update: 10 inches long head-to-toe and 12 ounces. About the size of a banana!

It's hard to imagine that we are now officially over the half way mark and on our way down the hill racing towards labor and having a baby in our arms. Freaky! It still seems a little surreal. I felt a few strong kicks this week, but they aren't reliable yet. Maybe as the kicks getharder it'll get more real to me, but I know some women who didn't "get" it until they handed them their baby in the hospital.

In any case, we are passing the midway point and now it's all racing downhill to the finish line!!! I'm sure it will come faster than we expect, especially with the holidays speeding it along over the next month.

We got to see the baby on ultrasound last Friday!!! Gave us a thumbs up from the inside so I guess everything I'm doing is keeping baby happy in there. And everything looked like it was developing just as its supposed to! Yahoo!!!!

John didn't sleep the night before. Half anticipation and excitement, half worry.It was the first time he had been able to make it to an ultrasound appointment. He just went and sat down next to the monitor and wouldn'ttake his eyes off the screen. For the next hour or so after the appointment he was just in stunned silence. Think it kinda overwhelmed him a bit.

And big news is.... IT'S A BOY!!!!!!

I'm so glad my mother's intuition was right on target! I've been thinking 'boy, boy, boy' all along while everyone else guessed girl. For some reason that's not what I felt...and I was RIGHT!!! :-D

We sawhis little penis in the ultrasound bright as day. No mistaking we are having a bouncing baby boy in a few short months. We are so excited we are having a SON!!!

So now that he has reached the halfway point its time for us to kick preparations into high gear. Last weekend Idove into the boxes of clothes our friends gave us. They had 2 boys and I just had a great time going through the cute little clothes. I seperated them by sizes and filled our tiny dresser pretty quickly. Their generosity has us pretty much set on clothes for a while, with some pretty cute stuff. (Though I'm sure we'll get more.)

So now the goal is that I need to focus on all the other baby stuff. I set up a baby registry at Babies R Us just to kinda keep track of everything I still need. I'm still adjusting a little bit but if ya wanna take a look just go to their website at:
http://www.babiesrus.com/ControllerServlet?registryNumber=67278533&target=search

We are continuing to plow through random boxes in our closet throwing things away, getting rid of stuff, and finding a place for things that are important to us. Ever since the ultrasound John has just been a little ball of energy. He's been waking up early and staying up late going through all his random computer parts and wires and figuring out what he can part with to aid in preparing for his son.

It's an exciting time in our house and our lives. Only 20 weeks left until our son joins it! I'm sure the weeks will fly by!

Photos included:
Turkey Trot morning
Ultrasound-Baby smiling
Ultrasound-Thumbs up
Jen's belly at 20 weeks pregnant - and somehow the scale says I've only gained 5 lbs?!?!

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Baby update week 19

This Friday we have our next ultrasound and should be able to tell whether our baby is a boy or a girl!!! I am excited and counting down the days! Baby is about the size of a zucchini. It weighs about 8 1/2 ounces, and measures 6 inches. Baby's brain is busy designating specialized areas for smell, taste, hearing, vision, and touch.

The women at work said I "popped" this last week. Frankly I think I popped a little earlier and was just good at hiding it cause I had practice hiding my belly being overweight for so many years. But it was still fun to hear! I even got my first belly pat! :-D

I still feel pretty good. I am slowing down though. I think I was under the impression that I would be a Superwoman and pregnancy wouldn't slow me down. All those other people just like to whine a lot...right??? But I absolutely am noticing where being pregnant stops me in my tracks in some ways.

I'm having trouble bending over cause of the pressure it puts on my tummy (it doesn't really bend with me) so John has taken over feeding and watering the pets and emptying the dishwasher. I'm tossing and turning in bed trying to get comfortable while making sure I sleep on my side. This past weekend the backaches came on really strong and had me glued to the couch for the morning. John was amazing, he just jumped right into gear and started doing things around the house and taking care of me. I'm so thankful he is around and he has been making the past week or two so much more relaxing and enjoyable.

We began to gut the second bedroom this past weekend in preparation for putting together the nursery. Trash bins are getting full and I have a few boxes of things to sell. I'm eyeing our bedroom closet to donate some clothes to goodwill in the next few weeks. Trying to make room wherever we can. We've still got a lot to do, but this week I finally saw a significant dent in what needs done. Since we find out the sex of the baby on Friday my plans for the weekend are to go through the boxes of clothes are friends have given us and start filling the baby's dresser with the things we will use.

We are having a bit of a hard time with John's new schedule. He got switched to working 11:30am-8pm. This means that my lunch hour is taken super early and spent driving across town. No rest for the pregnant lady mid-day. :-( That is a complete bummer because I could really use some down time. Then by the time I pick him up we end up having dinner just as I'm about to fall asleep. Not exactly the best schedule for a pregnanct diabetic since it screws with mealtimes and such... But you do what you have to do right? It's not impossible, just inconvenient and requires some adjustment. The biggest bummer is that since John works so late it means we can't go to any of the nighttime birthing classes. We will HAVE to figure out something to work around that.

I've been craving Taco Bell A LOT! I could probably eat it every day, though John would never let me. I DID satisfy my pizza craving finally by finding a place that offers a whole wheat crust, Magpie's Pizza. It's a few more bucks than Pizza Hut but it's worth it to get a kick butt pizza I don't have to feel guilty about eating.

I do still think that some pregnant women whine unnecessarily sometimes. I have absolutely no patience with a pregnant woman whining because her husband didn't go get her eggrolls and ice cream at 1am so she wasn't speaking to him for 2 days. I suppose this is because I have to keep such a tight reign on my behaviors to have a healthy baby and I get annoyed with people who just indulge in the ability to "get away" with stuff, whether "eating for two" (which is complete crap) or just being emotional bitches (which is also complete crap). But, thinking about it I think those people didn't want to control their behaviors beforehand, now they just have something to blame it on.

Oh, my other pet peeve is women who are scared of the Gestational Diabetes test they do around week 24. I just roll my eyes and get disgusted that they are so scared to death of getting a positive result. I've had a positive result from Day One. WIMPS!!! :-P

Diabetes Update

I have no real complaints about taking insulin, its just part of the routine and what I need to do so I do it. And I'm beginning to understand how to work with it better and adjust the levels myself. Its funny how mundane and non-challant I feel about it. Needles a couple times a day? Sure, no biggie. :-P

My diabetes educator, Mary Margaret is completely awesome. She eased my mind a little at my last appointment by telling me of a few other diabetic pregnancies she's guided so I know I'm right on track and doing well. I was beginning to get scared at the level of insulin I was reaching but then relaxed when I heard that by the end most pregnant women have doses like 10 times what I'm currently at. I did finally get the fast-acting "meal-time" insulin added to my repertoire, couldn't hold it off forever. In fact, I actually asked for it because I was getting a little nervous without it. Right now its not needed at every meal, just as "insurance" if my number's are running high so I have a way to lower them quickly.

Mary Margaret also raised my prescription levels so I now have HUGE amounts of both insulins at home to see me through for a little while. John and I both feel better and more at ease knowing that we have extra insulin instead of praying that our supply will make it until the next appointment. BONUS: I have permission to take extra insulin and eat some mashed potatos on Thanksgiving!!!! (Simple thrills!!!)

I am SO THANKFUL that of all diseases I could have, I have diabetes which if you are willing to stick yourself a couple times a day you can pretty much compensate for a bad pancreas. I'm glad I live in this day and age and can be taken care of as if there were no risk at all.

Well, thanks for reading. I know I get a little long-winded sometimes, but this is only a little bit of everything that's going on. And I just felt like talking today. I'll probably send another email out later this week when we find out boy/girl!!!! I won't be able to keep it quiet!

Thursday, October 25, 2007

16 Weeks Pregnant

We are at 16 weeks now! That's 40% of the way to our due date! Freaky!

I am doing good. This baby is wonderfully peaceful. My skin is great, my hair is great, I don't really have much morning sickness. My blood pressure is the lowest I've ever seen it. Everyone keeps asking me how I'm doing and waiting to hear some horror story so they can get their kicks. When I say I feel great they quit asking me!

Not to say I don't have stuff going on. I feel like a box of Rice Krispies getting out of bed (snap, crackle, pop). My hip joint hurts off and on. I toss and turn trying to get comfortable at night. I am dying for Pizza Hut but its not on my food list. I've had a dull headache for 4 days. I don't fit into my favorite jeans anymore cause my hips are too big. I spontaneously start bawling at sappy songs on the radio. I go insane if John is 10 minutes late getting home...

Biggest frustration is of course the diabetes. Here's a little 101 course: When ANYONE is pregnant the changing hormones and needs required by a baby starts to quadruple the amount of sugar in your blood. This requires your body to produce more insulin to compensate for the added sugars. My body was already not able to produce enough insulin so as the baby grows, the hormones grow, the sugar in my body grows...and the more insulin I will have to take. No way around it.

Its frustrating because my body seems to change every couple days. Just when I think I got it under control the baby has a growth spurt and I have to add more insulin (even if I'm eating the same food and exercising the same way.) In the past I've always been in the mindset of if I eat right and exercise I'm pretty controlled and when I see the numbers rise even a little I start feeling guilty even though there's not much more I can do other than add a unit of insulin. It's a bit of a rollercoaster and I'm having to try adjusting my thinking for this period of time.

Babywise, we are starting to prepare. We got our first "stuff"! One of John's co-workers was trying to get rid of some stuff so we got a couple boxes of baby clothes and nursery stuff. It's neat to go into our second bedroom and see the starts of a nursery.

Last week I got some maternity clothes mom ordered for me. SO comfortable. Friday night I tried to go out and put on my fav jeans and when they wouldn't go over my hips it was like a big WHAMMY to me. Uh-oh! Time to start wearing the maternity stuff!

We also saw Avenue Q, a broadway show touring through town last weekend. Kinda a left-over birthday gift from John. Not many other shows I will want to see before baby comes so it was nice to have that night out.

I have several dr appointments over the next couple of days and I'm really excited. It feels like forever since I've been but its only been about 2-3 weeks. I just wanna hear the heartbeat again.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Baby Palmer's First Sonogram

Hello family!

I'm assuming by now that word has traveled down the family pipelines and reached everyone...

John and I are having a baby!

Today I had my first sonogram and I just wanted to share pics with the family. Our baby was moving around like a mexican jumping bean for the first minute, clapping its hands and kicking its feet... But then it got tired and turned its back on us...not gonna be a performer I guess! :-)

Sonogram showed the baby's due date one day off of my guess-timate. We are due April 9th but because I have diabetes they are actually thinking we may have to induce a little earlier than that.

I am finally getting past this whole morning sickness thing and have actually had some energy to start working out again, but admittably I'm not pushing myself as hard. I have started insulin and haven't had any problems with that so far, not looking forward to the 8 shots a day they say are coming. Small price to pay though. Dr. said as well as my diabetes has been controlled over the past year I am staying even with "normal" mom's and currently have no additional risk factors associated with a diabetic pregnancy. Yay!!!

So all in all everything is going really well and right on track. We are excited! The past few weeks we've been so busy with dr's appointments and all the new regimen's with my medication and dietary changes we are just beginning to digest the fact that we need to reorganize the apartment and shuffle our finances and train the pets... I certainly can't have my dog barking at people whenever they come near our door, I'll be so mad if he wakes our sleeping baby!

Fun stuff to look forward to!!